Motherhood is not for the weak. It’s messy, it’s emotional, it’s frustrating, it’s crazy wonderful, and everything in between. In December, shortly after several women at our gym announced their pregnancies, Sarah Cawrse announced she was expecting “Baby Hiccup” in June. It came as a bit of a shock to everybody. Sarah wasn’t married. She wasn’t dating anybody. Yet, she found herself in a situation that many women have found themselves in before; pregnant with no plans to be.
Last week when I told Sarah she was on my heart for the Mom Crush post, she responded with,
“I always thought my situation was more of a lesson than an inspiration.”
A lesson, maybe, but I’ve had the privilege of watching Sarah blossom into this new role, and I’d like for you all to see why she has been an inspiration and a blessing in my life and the lives of so many others.
Sarah has ALWAYS been truthful and honest when it came to baby Hiccup. In a culture that encourages the EASY way out 99 out of 100 times, Sarah rose to the occasion. When hard questions, doubters, and decisions came her way, she chose the hardest job in the world, motherhood.
Sarah coaches at CrossFit Apollo and so many times I’d find myself complaining about how hard this pregnancy and motherhood business was. Sarah would be right there to help out in any way she could.
“Want me to take Ollie for a walk to give you a break?”
“Don’t be so hard on yourself, you just had a baby.”
“I’ll hold him while you workout.”
Here I am in my comfort bubble- with my husband and mother that live here, and it’s Sarah encouraging me. That’s who Sarah is with others. She is kind, supportive, honest, positive and always ready to lend a helping hand.
I interviewed Sarah, and asked her to share her story because I know there are other women out there wondering if they can get through single parenting. Whether that’s your story or not, I hope Sarah’s an encouragement to you.
SFM: Tell us about yourself: your job, hobbies, family, etc.
Sarah: My name is Sarah Cawrse I am an F-16 crew chief in the Air Force. I have been in 12 years and currently I am a flight chief because I am not able to be near or work on the aircraft. Hobbies I would say are obviously CrossFit whether doing it or coaching, hiking, hanging out with friends and traveling anywhere new. I am pretty open to trying new experiences such as skydiving and scuba diving even if sometimes it scares me a little.
SFM: Tell us about that moment you found out you were pregnant. What emotions were you feeling and why?
Sarah: I was sick off and on all week when a good friend told me to take a test, I took the test and immediately bust into tears. I was in denial, shock, scared… the list goes on. The next day I had blood work done to verify, they called me back about 3 hours after giving blood to verify that I was indeed pregnant and congratulations. My friend was excited from the very moment where I stared into space in shock barely answering the phone and after I hung up I asked her to start our workout because I needed to not think for a few moments.
SFM: I have had the pleasure of working out beside you for the past 9 months, and I get to see how strong you are on a daily basis. But what ultimately made YOU realize you could do this (raise baby Ali with or without her father’s involvement)?
Sarah: Family and friends. I knew from the beginning that with or without his involvement I wouldn’t be raising her alone. He isn’t in a position where he is able to move and I am not guaranteed to stay here so physically we won’t be in the same location. When I made the decision to keep her that was always part of the equation. The family and friends I have supported me and gave me faith in being able to raise her when I had none. I was given constant support and reassurance that even if he isn’t in her life and my family doesn’t live down the street I will never be raising her alone.
SFM: What are you most looking forward to on this journey of motherhood?
Sarah: Honestly? I can’t wait to see her smile and even though I know she is going to have a BIG personality and make my life difficult with a sassy little attitude I can’t wait to see what she comes up with. I also hope she is really cuddly and snuggles with me..
SFM: What have you learned from this experience? Were there ever moments when you thought you wouldn’t be able to do this on your own?
Sarah: I have learned to trust in God and He has a plan even though I had a different one. I have learned to trust in the people who love you, they are really gifts from Him and my guardian angels in life. I have learned that what I thought was a wrong turn may end up leading to the best thing that would ever happen to me. I also learned that you can’t plan your life, you have to just have faith and trust things will work out in the end.
SFM: What advice do you have for other women who might find themselves in a similar situation?
Sarah: The best advice I can tell other women is you are not alone. No matter what you think and how you feel people around you love and support you more than you could ever imagine if you just give them the chance. If you don’t believe people are there for you then remember God loves you and will always be there for you.
Baby Aleina Marie made her appearance (after Sarah’s water broke during a workout, of course) on Saturday, June 11, 2016. She is 5lbs 10 oz and 19inches long. Mama and baby are doing wonderful.